sometimes
February 17, 2022
I have fleeting thoughts where I wish I never showed my personal life or my face or anything. When I see vtubers right now with high pitched voices being loved and happy and not stalked or hated as much as I was, I feel envious. I think little Lily would have liked that now. I think my mental health would have been better.
Despite all that… I still made it through and created lots of fun memories. ^_^ I hope I inspired or helped some girls along the way.
You’ve definitely inspired tons of people and showing your face has given you a lot of opportunities so at least it wasn’t all bad 😀
It was a completely different time, how could you have known the internet would treat you that way? Little Lily didn’t know that.
If anything, you’re a big reason why high pitched girls like myself can be more confident and feel more accepted on the internet now.
Although I wish you were never mistreated, I can only say how thankful I am for your strength and resolve over the years.
You’re a huge inspiration to me and others indeed. I’m going to keep supporting you and enjoying the things you create until the day I die!
That is very understandable. I can only imagine how damaging being an online personality can be to someone’s mental health, but having your personality be very apparent in your content is what made me, and probably so many other people, stick around for so many years.
Please also remember that the grass can always look greener on the other side and feeling like a useless nobody no one cares about can be a big challenge too.
I guess you are on the opposite end of that spectrum, that must be challenging as well. Life finds a way to be difficult for everyone.
I wish you the strength to overcome the difficulties of your own life while making most of the advantages you have.
Hope to see you keep doing well
Hi Lily! I’m confident your work has inspired others along the way! Unfourntaly, there will always be haters/ stalkers out there, possibly because they’re jealous of what you do and envious of you do. Hell, there comes a time when I feel envious or jealous of what people like u do for a living, but I don’t let that cloud my feelings towards you guys. It is beautiful, what you and so many other people do and I’m truly grateful that I found people like you who are relatable, hard-working, and funny, lol, with so much personality. That’s what makes you, you. Try not to compare yourself with others, or else there will be no color in life if everyone is the same. As Judy Garland said, “Always be a first-rate version of yourself, instead of a second-rate version of somebody else”. 🙂 <3
As a young woman now who has been a quiet fan/follower of yours since 2016 and a gamer for what feels like all my life, who grew up with very few female role models in the industry until recently I’d say you’re one of my top inspirations (and likely the inspiration for many many other girls/women). Especially in the sense that very recently, as I look to come out of the shell I’ve been in so long out of fear of judgement, I’ve been motivated to explore and enhance the passions I have in gaming, music, esports, and community (just to name a few) in a way that was in heavy part driven by what you do and what you have accomplished. There was a time wherein I immensely considered doing vtubing just so I could do what I love and never show my face, but I realized that if I truly wanted turn my life around and follow what I feel like is my calling all the while engaging with others I too hope I inspire someday I HAD to put myself out there and embrace the uncomfy newness of it all.
So that is all to say THANK YOU for having that courage to put yourself out there so other women/girls could potentially feel comfort in knowing that they are not the only ones in the industries you have shined a light on!